Br’aad Vengolor Is A Manic Pixie Dream Girl In The Sense That I Think If He Had Prolonged Exposure

feelings cancelled. can’t believe letting yourself feel cancels a crashout. shit’s gas. i will not let myself go back to what hurts me and im literally so sexy swaggy cool for that like what i’m so based.

i need to be asleep but i was gripped by the sudden need to refine an old velrisa design idea

my awesome world. obviously it is more nuanced than this but this is the basics

HEY HI GOOD MORNING WHAT THE FUCK? HELLO??????? THIS IS SO???? IM SCREAMIND??????

irish goodbyes by @jamieycomplainey (miriam design by @violaextract )

the flowers i used are balloon flowers (purple, meaning everlasting love) summer blue (the Blue ones, common in wedding bouquets) baby breaths (white, also everlasting love) and i also used ferns for the green which mean magic, fascination, and secret bonds of love. i put wings on the sword because the dnd paladin logo has wings on the helmet :-)

i got two genres of comment responses on my fics it seems

“thabk u smm!!!! imm so glad u liked! ty-ty 4 the kudos!”

and

“anger is more comfortable than fear, in that way, because it washes away all insecurity; becoming a boiling, red-hot tide. ‘i am right and you are wrong’ is comforting to say, especially for children, who rarely get to be right in a world of grown-ups… that i’m-right-you’re-wrong sentiment quickly becomes: “i am better and you are lesser. i am normal and you are the freak. i deserve more, and you deserve less.” and the kids act that way with impunity, because their guardians never provide correction to that instinct and behavior path… because they’re just as scared.”

i love when sibling characters are fucked up from the same event but in opposite ways

writing about dnd characters is just about writing an idealized version of yourself getting emotional closure and feeling secure in their place in life. that’s why it’s fantasy writing.

cannot fucking believe i finally uploaded the end of OP&J and it killed ao3. my power was simply too much.

i’m seated. i’m sat. i’m looking.

Damn getting the annual cry about that one Br'aad and Sylnan edit to Ikanaide out the way early, huh?

(If you have not seen it, it is on YouTube. It is life changing. Trust me. It has been living rent free in my head for a good few years now despite cossy livs)

hello biggayhimbo enjoyers!

new fic just went up! it’s a velrisa-centric one-shot for a transmasc vel au. it’s mainly inspired by a short-hair fanart of vel that @ttrpgenjoyer drew a little while back, so go check them out!