pairing - joel miller x !female! reader
synopsis - i feel like y'all already know. but then again, no you don't.
warning(s) - mature themes, foul language, canon TLOU violence, descriptions of depression, main character death, suicide
please do not read if suicide or mentions of the topic will trigger you. your mental health matters more than a piece of fanfiction.
word count - 0.9k
it had been silent for weeks now.
the miller home, that was what was silent.
the big wooden house just on the corner of the street that connected the residences to the main parts of jackson. the house with the hand-painted mailbox with the inking of the word 'miller' messily drawn into its side.
a house that you couldn't bring yourself to look at. every time you found yourself walking that block, you made a detour. every time. without fail. you couldn't even bring yourself to tip your head in its direction.
you didn't want to see the wisps of what could've been. the life that you could have had, the love that you could have held onto if you had been faster. if you had been stronger. if you had been there like you said that you always would be.
but you were a liar.
"m'here for you," you had said, leaning into the flannel that was wrapped delicately around the tops of your shoulders. "even if y'don't want me t'be."
joel turned back to you, seeing the genuine truth glinting in your eyes like the stars that you were both occupied with watching. your lips curved into a smile when his gaze met yours - just as soft and loving as the millions of times that you'd smiled at him before.
he'd leaned closer to you, calloused hands cradling either side of your face like you were the one things his hands were made to hold. you nuzzled the warmth that radiated up from his skin, smiling as he pressed a kiss to your forhead. his lips lingered, his breath fanned out over your skin, and he'd muttered a quiet, "love you" against your skin.
you couldn't look ellie in the eyes either. you didn't want to see the sadness in her eyes, you didn't want to see the slump of her shoulders, you didn't want to be reminded of what she had lost that day.
because you didn't just lose the love of your life. she'd lost her dad that day. and it was your fault ... it had always been your fault.
you didn't even try. you just laid there underneath nora's legs, her knees pressing into the center of your spine, keeping you pinned down against the ground. you had screamed, sure, but what good would your voice do in the face of a vengeful daughter?
nothing. that was the answer.
it wouldn't do jackshit.
abby still hit the club against the side of his head. still killed him. it didn't matter to her that you had screamed. that you had begged. that you had cried and pleaded and whimpered and shouted. it didn't fucking matter.
joel's blank eyes had stared at you, the sight of them forever engrained into your memory. his bloodied body laid in front of you, his fingers already pale like he had been dead for weeks. his eyes were puffy, blood clung to his skin, his chest was still.
as much as you didn't want to believe it, he was dead.
and you'd been right there, the entire time.
your mind hadn't shut up since then. whispers in the shadows that followed you, echoes of his pain, echoes of your pain. you heard your own voice every night when your head hit the pillow. you heard him gurgling, choking on his own blood. you heard the impact of metal on skin.
it was like a cycle. never-ending. always continuing right from the beginning once it was finished.
you just wanted it to stop.
guilt followed you like a plague. it clung to your skin like a leech, sucking away whatever humanity still remained in your hollowed-out bones. it didn't leave you alone, didn't let you rest. always following, always there.
the gun looked friendly one night. it wasn't yours, it was his. a polished piece of metal that he'd cleaned a night or two before taking that patrol with dina.
you reached for it, not really thinking. you turned it over, seeing his initals that he'd carved into the handle. beside it was a tiny heart, that had been your little addition.
"to remind you of little ol' me," you'd told him lovingly. he'd kissed you after that.
dragging your feet, you found yourself on the porch of the wooden house on the corner. the first time in ... what? two weeks? three? four? hell, you didn't know.
the inside was the same as the day that he left. it was still cozy, still warm, still the remanants of a home. everything was right where he had left it last, clean and organized.
you exhale slowly, standing in the center of the living room. slowly you turn in a circle, taking in the surroundings that seemed to mock you. they remind you of what you could have had, of the domesticity that you had been chasing for years.
of the love that had slipped through your fingers like sand.
the muzzle presses cold against your temple. it makes you shiver.
your finger presses against the trigger, caressing it like the cheek of the lover that you had lost.
one...
two...
bang.
the gun hits the floor before you do. blood sprays the wall behind you, some of it paints the floor beneath you. the breath that leaves you is quick, fleeting.
your hand outstretches, your mind goes blank, and your world ends.
but it didn't matter.
you had been dead for a long time anyway.
you had died in that room with him. the only difference was that only one of you had stopped breathing.
things were quiet now.
the miller house was quiet.
fin.
Hi đ
Can u write Yuta, Gojo, Kokichi, and Noritoshi (the student) with a fem s/o who's very calm,quiet, and scary in public bcz of their scars and muscular body but when they are alone she's very sweet and shy :)
Make it fluff, and it's up to you if u wanna make it headcanons or whatever :)
Sypnosis - How would these boys fare with an S/O who doesn't look the most approachable at times?
Includes - Yuuta Okkotsu, Satoru Gojo, Kokichi Muta, Noritoshi Kamo
Warning(s) - none besides mention of scarring on Reader
! PIECE BEGINS UNDERNEATH THE CUT !
You were not exactly known to have a friendly face or an approachable person â avoided by many in most social settings thanks to the deep furrow of your brow and the frown that curls the corners of your mouth downward. Though you could be doing something as simple as thinking about what to prepare for dinner that night, your exterior displayed a deep anger for any and all that surrounded you. Â
You had built up walls that were borderline impenetrable ⌠that is ⌠until he steps into your life. Â
YUUTA OKKOTSUÂ Â
Like many, at first, Yuuta was intimidated by you. You carried yourself in such a way that made it seem as if you were uninterested in everyone around you â which included him when he first transferred to Jujutsu Tech.Â
Even Gojo seemed hesitant to introduce you, gesturing to you quickly with a wave of his hand before doing his absolute best to change the subject without it being noticed by you, Yuuta, or any of the other second-years. Â
One of the first things that Yuuta notices about you is the thin scars that line your arms, little stories of the missions that you had been on and reminders of the curses that you had defeated. Â
In truth, your appearance only adds to the mysterious, intimidating persona that you seemed to have adopted â one that deeply scared others and continuously drove them away from you. Â
Initially, it seems like the only person that you tolerate is Maki, considering that sheâs the only one that you show a sliver of emotion to. Sheâs the only one that you offer a soft smile to, the only one that you regard without that sharpened ice in your voice, the only one that you really showed that you were ⌠well ⌠human. Â
The other second-years had your favor as well; Yuuta quite enjoyed watching you train with Panda or playfully argue with Inumaki. He just wished that he had the courage to do what they did â which essentially was just talking to you. Â
Itâs only really with Pandaâs pushing that Yuuta eventually builds up enough courage to approach you, hesitantly asking if youâd wanted to spar with him (Maki was preoccupied with Inumaki). Shockingly, you smiled softly at him and accepted. Â
The rest was, quite literally, history. Â
Little by little, Yuuta makes his way over the walls that you had built up around your heart, soft eyes and gentle smile worming its way into your life without any intent of ever leaving. Â
He begins to realize that the way you acted with him was a complete 180 to how you acted around others. You regarded him with a soft tone, you touched him with gentle palms, you cooed sweet praises to him and hugged him tightly on those cold nights.Â
You may be a force to be reckoned with out on the field, but to Yuuta? You were the soft-spoken girl that he devoted his entire heart to. Â
SATORU GOJOÂ
At first, Gojo doesnât want to think that he finds you intimidating. He tries to be nonchalant when he sees you standing beside Nanami, but you donât miss the way that his eyes flicker around the room â desperately trying to look anywhere but where you stand. Â
His gaze is drawn to your scars almost immediately, slightly impressed at the fact that you do very little to hide them. In any other case, he would say that you were proud of them (at least, thatâs what he thought). Â
But, ever the confident man, Gojo does eventually decide to approach you (literally the second that Nanami leaves the room). He tries to crack a joke or two, hoping that you would break and that maybe you would crack a smile. You donât ⌠and he physically deflates.Â
That does very little to actually deter him though. Actually, he makes it his personal mission to make his way over the walls that youâve so obviously put up around your heart. While everyone else would find his actions downright annoying, you find them oddly endearing. Â
Itâs rare that someone takes such an interest in you, considering that the aura you radiated was really anything but initially friendly. To see Gojo try so hard to capture your attention ⌠well, it only makes you that much more interested in just why he was so dead set on you. Â
Eventually, Gojo finally finds it in himself to properly ask you out â in his very own Satoru Gojo way. A bouquet of overpriced roses, a night at a resturant with pricing that could probably pay your mortgage, and a sweet walk that ended with Gojo hopelessly devoting himself to you. Â
He adores the change in your personality â how you can easily switch from sternly speaking to your students to mumbling to him as if he were the only thing in your world that mattered. Â
But that doesnât mean that he doesnât also love the firm persona you take on when youâre, for example, out for a day together. Â
He adores you ⌠always and forever.Â
KOKICHI MUTAÂ Â
Unlike the others, Kokichi isnât immediately put off by your appearance. If anything, heâs intrigued by it. In a way, you remind him of himself; kept to yourself and separated from others â it makes him want to interact with you right at that moment. Â
He wonât ever admit it to your face, but the first time that he did end up speaking to you, he was quite literally shaking under your gaze. You were just so damn assertive.Â
At first, you come off as very bothered by Kokichi â but he quickly learns that it's the complete opposite. Just because you were this scarred, unapproachable individual didn't make you any less human than Kokichi himself. Â
Slowly but surely, he makes his way over those walls that you had built up around your heart, opening you up and revealing that softened persona that lay hidden underneath it all. The sweet-eyed, soft-spoken girl who really wanted nothing more than to love and be loved in return. Â
Upon coming to that realization, Kokichi finds himself gentler with you â just like you were with him. His words are soft-spoken and truthful, his actions performed out of the kindness of his heart rather than if the situation called for it. Â
All in all, Kokichi feels a sense of protectiveness over you once you finally open yourself up to him. You were being vulnerable with him in a way that you simply weren't around others. And he was going to protect that vulnerability, no matter what it took. Â
NORITOSHI KAMOÂ
Out of all the previously mentioned characters, Noritoshi is the one who minds the least about your appearance. If anything, he finds himself relating to you â considering that many donât approach him as well for various reasons. Â
And so because of that, he approaches you with as much confidence as he could muster, striking up a conversation with you and regarding you just as softly and respectfully as he would anyone else. Â
Youâre caught off guard by him at first, though slowly but surely, you and Noritoshi constantly seek the other out. Â
He admires your ability to switch between being stoic and cold to soft and sweet. How around others you wore an expression as cold as the harshest winter, but the moment that you heard the lull of his voice, you were turning to him with a gentle smile. Â
Noritoshi admires your scars actually, spending many nights just laying at your side with his fingertips dragging over the raised skin. Heâll hum a quiet song for the both of you, holding you and simply moving his fingers along your arm or leg. Â
Another thing that Noritoshi adores about you is the way you whisper to him during your time spent together â how you lower and soften your voice when speaking to him. He smiles gently at you when he notices, then holding your face and decorating your face with little kisses. Â
He doesn't mind your switch from soft to stoic, he knows that it's just what you're used to and it's become the norm for you. To him, you're still his lover, his absolute everything -- no matter what persona you decide to put on for the day.Â
hi i hope youâre well! i love your writing and i was hoping to make a req for gojo. reader riding his face and heâs just sloppy with it because heâs obsessed with her and how good she tastes and he wonât stop talking about it either lmao full on loverboy <3 thank you so much!
Sypnosis - Read above request.
Warning(s) - This is just smut guys, c'mon, read the request.
! PIECE BEGINS UNDERNEATH THE CUT !
âCâmon baby, pleaseee?â Satoru whines, turning his head so that his cheek rests against your inner thigh. His eyes flicker up to you, wide and puppy-like. God, you could already feel yourself folding.Â
Your fingers pause their scratching of Satoruâs scalp, eyes boring into his own as you force yourself to wear a stern expression. Â
âI donât know âtoru,â you murmur offhandedly, wincing as Satoruâs expression falls. He sighs, breath fanning out over the exposed skin of your leg â which sends a shiver up your spine. Â
He pouts, bottom lip jutting out as his arms squeeze around your waist. You jolt, not having expected the gesture. Â
âWhatâs the worst that could happen?âÂ
âI crush youâŚ?âÂ
Satoru hums, tilting his head as if he were weighing his options. You bite back the laugh that bubbles in the back of your throat, nearly allowing your resolve to crumble. Â
âWhat a way to go outââÂ
âSatoru!â You slap a hand against the back of his head, chuckling breathily as he dramatically yelps, then burying his head into your stomach. âDonât say things like that.âÂ
He groans, the vibration of his voice tickling your skin. Your fingers return to his hair, scratching lightly over his scalp â it makes you giggle how he immediately leans into the touch, practically purring.Â
âPleaseee~?â Satoru begs, flashing you his signature puppy eyes again in the hopes that it would break you down enough to say âyesâ to his one request.Â
(In truth, he was making it seem like this was his last request before he would surrender to the skeletal hands of Death.)Â
âAre you sure that you want me to sit on your face?â you raise your eyebrow. The expression that Satoru wears is comical â his eyebrows flattened and his eyes narrowed in the most âAre you kidding me?â look that you had ever seen.Â
And thatâs what brought you here.Â
On top of Satoruâs nose.Â
Rocking your hips against him as you desperately chased an orgasm that was right there. Â
The lewd sounds of Satoru slurping up every bit of what you offer him only makes the coil in your stomach tighten. His tongue is buried in your heat, greedily licking up every last bit of your essence and moaning against you. Â
You brace yourself on your palms, hands on either side of Satoruâs head with your fingers curling up the sheets. You throw your head back, moaning out in such a pornographic way that Satoru genuinely thought he had cum in his pants (he didnât ⌠yet). Â
His tongue moves upward, lips latching onto your clit as he roughly sucks on the sensitive bundle of nerves, holding your hips steady as you begin to lose your balance on top of him. Â
âCâmon pretty girl, wanâ you to cum on my tongue,â Satoru murmurs against you, the vibrato of his voice sending a delicious shiver up your spine.Â
You glance down, the coil in your stomach nearly snapping at the mere sight of Satoruâs eyes peering up at you, pupils lust blown from the position that you were currently in. Â
A broken moan falls from your lips as you rock your hips against his face, clit just barely rubbing against the tip of his nose. ââtoru!âÂ
The lewd sound of Satoru gulping down all your pussy offers him is the answer that you receive â that which finally pushes you completely over the edge. Â
Your body stutters, nearly losing your balance. Satoruâs hands grab at the skin of your thighs, fingers digging into the supple flesh and leaving behind small crescent marks from his nails. Â
His tongue works you through your orgasm, tongue kitten-licking your clit until youâre convulsing on the verge of overstimulation. Your chest rises and falls in whiny pants, body trying to lift itself from Satoruâs mouth â but he continues his relentless actions. Â
Your fingers tangle themselves into his hair, nails grazing against his scalp and tugging upward on the strands. Satoru groans against you, the vibration keeping you teetering on the edge of another orgasm. You tug your bottom lip up between your teeth, biting down into the flesh and swallowing another moan as it rises in your throat. Â
Finally, after one last tug to his hair, Satoru lets you fall back against the bed, chest rising and falling as you attempt to catch your breath. He turns his head, grinning at you with that same shit-eating grin that he always wore in situations where he was proven right. Â
"See, nothing bad happened!" Satoru grins as he tugs you into his arms, pressing chaste kisses against your neck as you lean into him, nose tucking into the crook of his neck. Â
You hum in response, eyes already fluttering shut as exhaustion begins to seep into your bones. Satoru only chuckles to himself, squeezing you tighter against him and pressing a lingering kiss to your hairline. He glances down at your sleepy face, smiling to himself as he cards his fingers through your hair, nails scraping against your scalp. Â
"So can we do it again?"Â
"'toru!"Â
In which you shoot at them to prove a point!
Requested? Yes / No
Includes : Gojo, Sukuna, Toji, Shiu
A/N - Sorry for vanishing on yâall. College sucks; yada yada. Leave me some SMAU requests âcause I love seeing everyoneâs ideas!
This is self-indulgent comfort because hey, guess who just read chapter 236?
Also, consider this my official apology for this post.
This wasn't real. Â
"C'mon Satoru, get up," you all but beg, fingers folding uncomfortably into one another as you stare forward. You already know that everyone else is staring at you, watching you, gauging their own reactions based off of what you display. Â
He wasn't losing, was he?Â
You tug your bottom lip between your teeth, continuing to watch as he pushed himself further and further towards a limit that you didn't know if he could bounce back from. The pit in your stomach only grew with each blow that he sustained, it grew with each drop of blood he lost and it grew with each Domain Expansion that he managed to pull off.Â
No. He was the strongest, he'd be fine.Â
At your side is Yuuji, his hand holding onto yours so tightly that you can feel your bones begin to crack. Even with the slightly uncomfortable sensation, you say nothing â Yuuji needed to feel the comfort of something familiar, and that just so happened to be you. Â
And then ⌠silence.Â
Satoru Gojo ⌠on the floor ⌠eyes staring blankly up at the sky ⌠blood everywhere. Â
"âŚ'toru?"Â
You begin to tremble, the shake beginning in your fingers before slowly traveling up your body like a snake, coiling and twisting over your bones and biting into you â its fangs leaving behind a poisonous panic.Â
"Satoru--!"Â
"Hmm? Wha â what happened?"Â Â
Your eyes shoot open, beads of sweat dripping down your forehead and making your hair cling uncomfortably to your skin. Your body propels itself upward, feet kicking off the blankets that cover you â it was warm, too warm. Â
"Hey, hey, what's goin' on?" Â
Your head swivels to the side, nearly giving yourself whiplash. There, at your side, is that familiar tuft of snowy-white hair and bright aquamarine eyes that soften at the panicked expression you wear. Satoru.Â
You open your mouth to say something, but instead of a coherent sentence, all your body is able to produce is a broken sob. And right on cue, Satoru's arms are locked around you, tugging you to his chest and allowing you to bury your face into his shoulder.Â
Your nails bite into his back as you sob into him, body trembling with the weight of your cries. Though the feeling of you scratching him was a touch painful, there was nothing that would stop him from comforting you â not when you were this distressed. Â
"Hey âŚÂ hey. Shh, 'm right here," Satoru murmurs into your hair, laying gentle kisses against your hairline as his fingers rub comforting circles into the small of your back. "Shh."Â
You feel yourself begin to calm as the familiar tingle of Infinity washes over you, draped over your shoulders like a blanket fresh from the dryer. Its warmth reminds you of the safety that Satoru's arms provide, how he would never let anything happen to you. That you were safe. That he was safe. Â
That whatever you saw when your eyes were closed was nothing but a story told by your imagination. Â
"Don't leave me 'toru âŚÂ ever," you mumble into Satoru's shirt, voice breaking to release a small sob. His arms tighten around you, cheek pressing into your hair. He can feel his heart tightening in his chest â mind wrapping around just how small you sounded. How desperate. Frail. Â
He sighs, craning his neck and laying his palm against your cheek, lifting your head and guiding your tear-filled gaze to meet his softened one. His lips turn upward in a smile, the pad of his thumb swiping against the tears that roll silently down your cheeks. Â
"Hey, there she is," he murmurs warmly, tone dripping with affection and a softness that he could only ever reserve for you. Satoru leans down, pressing a lingering kiss to your forehead. At the contact, your eyes momentarily shut, as if committing the very feeling of him against you to memory. Â
"I'm here. Not goin' anywhere just yet."Â
His thumb swipes against your bottom lashes, wiping away those last few tears that cling so desperately to your waterline, wanting to fall but not being brave enough to make the final choice. Satoru smiles again â silently wanting you to do the same. Â
Even though your heart still aches and your mind still reminds you of what you had seen ⌠you smile too. Â
Because deep down, in that little safe kept in your chest, you know that Satoru wouldn't go down so easily. At the end of the day, just like he had promised you âŚÂ
... he would always be on the other side of the front door. Â
In which your mission ends, but are you okay?
Includes : Gojo, Geto. Nanami, Toji, Sukuna, Yuuji, Megumi, Choso
Tag List : @klynne , @an-ever-angry-bi , @namjooningera , @abcdbleh
I feel like Geto would mesh really well with a !Non-Affectionate partner.
Personally, I donât see Geto as the biggest cuddle bug or being the biggest fan of PDA. I feel like his love languages fall more in line with quality time and gift giving. That doesnât mean that he despises physical affection or anything of that sort â I just feel like he would rather use other methods in order to display his undying love for you.
Everything was perfect.Â
"You may kiss the bride."Â
Your rosy lips turn upward in a lovesick smile, arms lifting to wrap around Gojo's neck and bring his face closer to yours, the tips of your noses brushing against one another as his arms loop around your waist. With one hand, he holds your waist, and with the other, he slowly begins to lift your leg, hooking it over his hip and dipping you down. Â
You let out a tearful giggle, the sound mixing with Gojo's chuckle as he slots his lips against yours, pouring years of love and adoration into a singular kiss. You squeeze your arms around him to steady yourself, smiling against his lips as they move against your own. Â
You pull back from him just as his tongue swipes against your bottom lip, no doubt wanting to shamelessly make out with you in front of an audience. But with your family sitting somewhere in the crowd, one of you had to demonstrate self-control. Â
"It's nice to meet you Mrs. Gojo," Gojo whispers, his breath fanning over your lips as he continues to hold you close. You dive forward, pecking his lips again. He smiles at you, tearful aquamarine eyes crinkling at the corners as he stares down at you;Â his little wife.Â
Everything was perfect.Â
"I'm home!" Gojo announces as he kicks his shoes off, turning his body halfway to close the front door and peering around the dim-lighted living room. His eyebrows furrow, arms slapping against his sides as he realizes that you're not running to him to embrace him. Â
Slowly, he walks further into the house, curiously peering into the kitchen only to be met with the sight of nothing. Worry sinks into his chest, but he doesn't allow himself to get worked up just yet. Â
"Honey?" Gojo's voice is a quiet whisper as he enters the living room, eyes met with a heartwarming sight; you're sat in the center of the couch, arms wound around a sleeping Megumi. The boy leans impossibly further into your side, his head tucked comfortably into the crook of your neck with his body splayed over your own like a weighted blanket. Â
His lips turn upward in a soft smile, hand reaching for his phone to photograph the moment and commit it to memory. But just as his fingers brush his phone, something tells him to instead live in the moment as opposed to capturing it. Â
Gojo moves to kneel silently beside the couch, reaching out his index finger and lovingly stroking it against your cheek, smiling to himself as your nose scrunches up and you stir slightly. Those eyes that he could spend hours gazing into flutter open, a sleepy smile curling the corners of your lips upward. Â
"Hi 'Toru," you whisper, yawning. Â
"Hi pretty girl."Â
Everything was perfect.Â
"Satoru Gojo!"Â
Gojo pauses, every bone in his body stilling as he slowly turns to look over his shoulder, swallowing his pride (and dignity) as you stomp over, Megumi not far behind. Gojo glances quickly at Yuuji and Nobara, silently asking them for help â but immediately the two first-years look around, not wanting to stand in the way of your wrath. Â
"Hey honey," Gojo says with a smile, already feeling sweat build up against his forehead as you grow closer, eyes flaring with an anger that he had only ever seen once before â and honestly, he had no idea how he had even survived. "What's â uh â what's going on?"Â
"What's going on?! You mean to tell me that you're going to stand there and act like nothing is wrong?" Your voice raises an octave or two in volume, making Gojo cringe and shrink in on himself. It was almost entertaining, really. Watching the 6'3 Special Grade Sorcerer be reduced to a shaking mess at the sight of his angered wife. Â
Gojo remains silent, not wanting to respond in the fear that you would bite his head off. Â
The staring contest between yourself and Gojo is tense, only made worse by the other pairs of eyes that watch quietly from the sidelines. Â
Yuuji shifts closer to Megumi, craning his neck just low enough to whisper into his ear, "What's going on?"Â
Megumi only smirks, lifting his arms to cross them over his chest. "He ate her leftovers last night."Â
Everything was perfect...Â
"I understand that your work is important, but you're barely home anymore," you say desperately, closing Megumi's bedroom door and turning on your heel to glance at Gojo. He rubs his hands against his face, skin catching the groan that falls from his lips.Â
"I can't just say no to what the higher-ups want me to do, honey. You know that," Gojo responds, not failing to notice how your teeth catch your bottom lip, roughly biting down into the supple skin. Â
"You have a family here 'Toru. Your missions are getting more and more dangerous and I â I don't want to be sitting on the couch one day and you just," you pause to swallow the growing lump in your throat, "don't come home."Â
Gojo softens, his heart hammering in his chest as he stares silently down at you. Your eyes shine with tears, tears that he desperately wants to reach out and brush away â but something inside of him tells him not to. Â
"Megumi needs you here. Hell, I need you here," you say desperately, laying a palm flat against your chest as you step forward to close the distance between yourself and Gojo. Â
Something inside you damn near breaks as your husband takes a step back from you. Â
"I know. Trust me I know. But there's only so much I can do. They need me (Y/N)," Gojo says. Immediately â the moment that those words fall from his lips â he wishes that he could fucking swallow them. Â
You freeze, body standing rigid as your eyes blankly stare at him. Any ounce of emotion, anything that might have made you human is suddenly gone, replaced instead by a robotic stare that chills Gojo down to his very core.Â
Silently, you brush past him, shoulder knocking against his chest as you walk down the hallway and vanish into the living room. Gojo stares after you, turning his head towards Megumi's door and screwing his eyes shut â fuck. Â
Everything was perfect...?Â
"Megumi! Have you seen your mother?" Gojo asks, waving his hand wildly in the air as the raven-haired teenager turns to glance at him, raising an eyebrow in both annoyance and curiosity. Â
"She just went out on a field mission, why?"Â
Gojo's heart sinks, body deflating as he pockets the necklace that he had planned to give you; a heart locket with a picture from your wedding day inside of it. Megumi watches his adoptive father's shaking hands, and a pang of curiosity flows through his body, but he makes no mention of it. Â
"Oh, no reason. I just wanted to give her something," Gojo answers dismissively, waving his hand at Megumi before he lets out a disappointed sigh. Â
Everything was perfect?Â
"I understand, I'll tell Shoko to prepare a bed now," Ichiji says with a swift nod, though it doesn't go unnoticed how he swallows the lump in his throat. He removes the phone from his ear, pressing down on its red "hang-up" button and stowing the device away in his pocket. Â
Curiously, Gojo peers at the assistant manager through his blindfold, tilting his head curiously as the younger man stands from his seat, beelining for the door and disappearing into the hallway. Â
The snowy-haired male stands, following closely behind Ichiji and watching as the man's back tenses, his hands curling into white-knuckled fists. What the fuck was going on?Â
His breath catches in his throat as he enters the infirmary. One of the tables is occupied, the body covered by a thin white tarp that's stained with the blood of whoever lies underneath. Â
Ichiji glances at Shoko, who only stares down at the stained tarp with a numb glint to her eyes. Her hand extends, fingers wrapping over the top of the tarp and lowering it to reveal who lies beneath. Â
Gojo's stomach turns. Â
Was everything perfect?Â
singledad! nanami having the hots for yujiâs kindergarten teacher who has the tendency to overwork herself to the bone in the name of her precious students
he gets her to unwind with him 𫣠they fuck LMAOOOLLL
Sypnosis - Read above request.
Pairing - !SingleDad Nanami x !Kindergarten Teacher Reader
Warning(s) - None besides some foul language.
Word Count - 2.6k
A/N - Hi, yes, okay, I know the request had a smut element to it, but I took a fluffy route. If you want a part two that has that smut element or an alternate version that focuses on that smut element, please send me a request and I will get to it as quickly as I can! But I hope you enjoy reading this just as much as I enjoyed writing it!
! PIECE BEGINS UNDERNEATH THE CUT !
ENCOUNTER 1 :Â
âThere! Heâs over there!â Yuuji says happily, his grip over your hand tightening as he points to a blonde-haired man standing in the crowd of awaiting parents. You follow his gaze, smiling kindly as the man lifts his hand in a wave, grinning at both you and Yuuji. Â
âAlright, off you go then,â you smile down at Yuuji, releasing his hand and watching as the six-year-old toddles over to his father, wrapping his arms around the taller manâs leg and smiling widely up at him. His father stands straight, waving once more to you before vanishing into the crowd.Â
ENCOUNTER 2 :Â
"Mr. Nanami, correct?" You cast a glance down at your clipboard before your gaze returns to the blonde male standing in front of you. He nods, smiling apologetically as Yuuji tugs once again on his arm, trying his hardest to get his father's attention. "You can both come inside."Â
Nanami smiles again as he walks past you, taking a seat on the too-small chairs that you had set up in the center of the classroom. His knees curl up to his chest, but he says nothing as you sit in front of him, smiling first at Yuuji before your gaze shifts to settle on him. Â
"Yuuji is an absolute pleasure to have in class. He's very helpful with others and myself, he focuses on each task he's given â he's a very gifted student," you explain, lifting up the pages on your clipboard and smiling as Yuuji's toothy grin widens, gleeful with the praise you were giving him. Â
"Is that so? I'm very glad to hear that," Nanami nods, turning then to Yuuji and placing a palm over the top of his head. The six-year-old giggles, leaning into his father's touch with a closed-eye smile. Â
You watch the interaction with a gentle smile of your own, fingers releasing their hold on the papers of your clipboard and listening as they quietly fall into place. Â
ENCOUNTER 3 :Â
"Papa, look! It's Miss (Y/N)," Yuuji bubbles happily, tugging on Nanami's pant leg and pointing in the direction that he had seen you. Curious, Nanami allows his gaze to follow Yuuji's finger â the scolding he wanted to give about pointing falling dead in his throat. Â
You're preoccupied with whatever shopping list is curled between your fingers, lips pressed firmly together in thought as you struggle to decide which brand of potato chips to buy. Nanami can't help but silently admire you from his place farther down the same aisle. His lips tug upward in a soft smile â maybe one day he would have enough courage to stride up to you.Â
ENCOUNTER 4 :Â
"Oh, hello. Did Yuuji forget something at home?" you inquire curiously, raising an eyebrow as a very disheveled Nanami straightens himself out in front of you. His fingers fiddle with his tie, trying to make it look a touch more presentable â but to no avail. Â
"I apologize for my appearance, this morning has been hectic. But yes, Yuuji accidentally left his lunchbox," Nanami answers, holding up the small metal lunchbox decorated with superhero stickers â some scratched and some brand new. Â
You smile gently at him, reaching out to take the lunchbox from his fingers. "Don't worry, we all have those mornings," you say reassuringly, chuckling gently at Nanami. He returns your smile, cheeks warming at the lingering feeling that your fingers had left behind. Â
ENCOUNTER 5 :Â Â
"Hey, isn't that Yuuji's teacher?" Gojo asks, lifting his index finger to point across the bar. Nanami's eyes follow Gojo's finger â which then widen at the sight of you mingling with a few friends, nursing a fruity cocktail in your hand. Â
Nanami hums in response, trying his hardest to return his attention to his drink, but your outfit is much too tight, pushing up exactly what needs to be pushed up and making your figure just that much more attractive. Behind his eyeglasses, his gaze roams up and down the dips and curves of your body, his lips quirking up in tune with his wandering eyes. Â
"Yeah, it is," he mutters offhandedly, lifting his glass to his lips and resting it against the skin there. Gojo smirks, lowering his finger before standing from his place at the bar. Nanami's eyebrows pinch together in curiosity, watching the snowy-haired male swagger his way across the bar â not stopping until he reaches where you stand with your friends, then throwing a slender arm over your shoulders. Â
The once loose grip Nanami had over his glass is replaced by a tight curl of his fingers, one that could surely shatter the glass should he apply the right amount of pressure. His eyes narrow in an almost predatory manner â watching as Gojo smiles at both you and the friends that had come along with you. Â
You return his smile and laugh at the cheesy jokes that he throws your way, but Nanami can see the hint of discomfort that lies behind the curl of your lips. Oh, so that was Gojo's plan.Â
Downing the rest of the whiskey in his glass, Nanami stands from his place at the bar, striding across the small space until he stands just a few inches away from you, your friends, and Gojo â the latter of whom is wearing that shit-eating grin he always wears when his plans work out just the way that he wanted them to. Â
"Oh! Mr. Nanami! I didn't expect to see you out here," you say, turning quickly to glance at the blonde as he wanders into your line of vision. Your smile, once uncomfortable and forced, was now that same smile that you flashed at him when you noticed him at dismissal. "It's nice to see you."Â
Nanami's cheeks heat, and he silently thanks the bar for being so dim, its lighting hiding the gentle pink hue that imbues over his face. "It's nice to see you as well Miss (Y/N)," Nanami nods at you, feeling himself smile as you shift an inch closer to him. Â
"Oh, would you like to join me at the bar? Your friends can as well, if they'd like," Nanami offers, shooting Gojo a pointed glare. Gojo only smirks, shrugging his shoulders indifferently. That bastard.Â
You glance to your friend, who nods encouragingly at you. You turn back to Nanami, smiling at his offer and reaching a hand out to squeeze his arm â your touch lights a small fire underneath his skin, one that he most certainly does not complain about. Â
"We'd love to, thank you."Â
ENCOUNTER 6 :Â
"Where's your father Yuuji?" Your voice is a quiet mumble, your fingers still closed around Yuuji's as the both of your gazes sift through the crowd of awaiting parents â and yet Nanami is nowhere to be seen. The pink-haired boy sinks back onto his heels, a saddened look falling over his face as he leans into your side. Â
"I don't know," he mumbles in response, his eyes already glossing over with tears. You soften, kneeling down to be at eye-level with the boy and smiling as reassuringly as you can at him. "Did he forget me?"Â
You shake your head quickly, squeezing the tiny hand that still rests in yours. Yuuji sniffles, his cheeks puffing out in an adorable pout. "No! No honey, your father did not forget you. It could just be that work is keeping him a little later."Â
Seemingly satisfied with your explanation, Yuuji nods, rubbing his free hand against his tear-filled eyes, sniffling. You smile again, squeezing his fingers before guiding him back to the entrance of your classroom. Â
He follows, sitting down at his seat and taking the coloring sheets and colored pencils that you offer him, already scribbling away at the black-and-white monkey that laid in front of him. You take the seat at his left, feeling your heart warm as Yuuji tilts the sheet towards you â a silent invite for you to color with him. Â
You take one of the colored pencils that he offers you, coloring in a small section of the page and occasionally looking up to your classroom door â where the hell was Nanami? Â
"Wait here for a moment Yuuji, I'm going to call your father, okay?" You lift a hand to ruffle the boy's hair, smiling at him before silently moving towards the chorded phone tucked into the corner of your classroom, located just behind your desk. Â
Just as you finish dialing in the now familiar number, the door to your classroom opens, revealing a disheveled Nanami. He leans quietly against the doorframe for a moment, catching his breath before Yuuji turns, smiling widely at the sight of his father. Â
"Papa!"Â
You turn from where you stand beside the phone, smiling in relief as you watch Yuuji bound up to Nanami, wrapping his little arms halfway around his father's legs. Â
"There you are. I have to admit, I was getting a little worried about you," you admit with a smile, waving to Nanami as you walk closer to the pair, watching through softened eyes as Yuuji reaches for his completed coloring page, wanting to show his father. Â
"I apologize for my lateness. I had not expected my office to keep me as late as they did," Nanami apologizes, bowing his head at you. You wave him off, then folding your fingers together in front of you. Â
"It's not an issue at all. Though you did give Yuuji quite the scare," you admit, not failing to notice the way that Nanami's smile fades for a quick moment, but returns when Yuuji lifts his coloring page up to him. Â
"Oh," he hums, turning to Yuuji and laying a palm against the youngster's head, lovingly ruffling his hair. "I apologize Yuuji, I didnât mean to frighten you."Â
"It's okay Papa! Miss (Y/N) and I colored together!" Yuuji bubbles, his eyes crinkling in a wide smile as his eyes momentarily flicker to you. "See? I made this one look like you."Â
Nanami smiles fondly, then turning to you and once again mouthing his thanks. You merely wave him off, watching with a smile of your own as Yuuji continues to explain each little character that he had colored in. Â
ENCOUNTER 7 :Â
"Good morning Miss (Y/N)!" Yuuji exclaims happily, smiling brightly up at you as Nanami leads him forward, releasing the little boy's hand as he tugs his father towards you. Â
Biting back the yawn that rises in your throat, you will yourself to smile back at your student, waving politely at him and watching through half-lidded eyes as he lets go of Nanami's hand. He opens his mouth to question you, but is immediately distracted by the call of one of his friends. Â
"Good morning Miss (Y/L/N)," Nanami bows politely at you, one that you return clumsily. His eyebrows pinch together in a mixture of curiosity and concern â you weren't acting like your regular self. Your once bubbly attitude and bright greetings were replaced now by half-assed "good morning's" and small waves that carried none of your usual warmth. Â
"Morning Mr. Nanami," you return, your smile wobbling as your eyes flicker to meet his own. It's then that he notices the exhaustion that weighs heavy on your eyelids, practically tugging them down to a point where you look as though you're about to fall asleep standing upright. Â
"Are you feeling alright this morning?"Â
"Oh yes, just tired is all," you wave off his concern, smiling once again at him before a comfortable yet uncomfortable silence falls over the both of you. "I'll be seeing you later?"Â
"Yes, have a good day," Nanami smiles at you, his heart warming when you return it â though it doesn't quite reach your eyes that way that it would normally. You wave again at him as he walks off, then turning to your awaiting students and clapping your hands once together. Â
ENCOUNTER 8 :Â
"Oh! Miss (Y/N)! My papa wanted to talk to you after school today," Yuuji mentions to you, smiling as he glances up from the worksheet that he had been previously occupied with. Your eyebrows pinch together in intrigue, glancing down at the pink-haired boy and tilting your head at him.  Â
"Alright then, I'll be waiting for him," you reply with a kind smile, then continuing your routine check on the rest of your students, being sure that none of them were struggling with the work that you had handed out. Â
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"Yuuji mentioned that you wanted to speak with me?"Â Â
Nanami swallows the growing lump in his throat, suddenly feeling oddly choked up as you stand in front of him, lifting his hand to scratch at the back of his neck. His shirt feels tighter than before, the air surrounding him is suddenly hotter than it had been previously. Â
"Yes â uhm â my apologies if I am taking up your time," Nanami begins, fiddling with his fingers and scratching at already existing hangnails, "but there is something that I wanted to ask of you."Â
You smile kindly at him, a gentle laugh falling from your parted lips â a sound that Nanami wishes that he could commit to the very depths of his memory. Â
"You're not wasting my time at all," you're quick to reassure him, your gaze momentarily flickering to Yuuji as he takes advantage of the empty classroom, organizing the books in your small-shelved library. Â
Nanami inhales deeply, holding the breath in his chest and wondering if what he was about to ask would make you view him in a different light â though he sincerely hoped that you wouldn't. Â
"I was wondering...and forgive me if this is too forward...if you would like to join me for coffee sometime this weekend?" His voice is dangerously quiet, a light shake to his voice as the fear of being rejected finally sinks into his bones â maybe he shouldnât have said anything at all. Â
Your laughter dies down, fading completely as you stare at Nanami â you certainly hadn't expected him to ask you that. Â
Just as Nanami opens his mouth to apologize again, you cut him off. Â
"I'd love to."Â
With cheeks dusted pink and a smile that could only be compared to a lovesick fool, Nanami glances up at you, feeling his chest warm at the sight of your dimpled cheeks and crinkled eyes. Â
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"So that's how you and Papa fell in love?" Yuuji tilts his head curiously, biting back his yawn as he nestles further into his comforters. You smile gently at him, reaching a hand out to affectionately ruffle his hair, threading your fingers through his pink locks. Â
"That's exactly how Papa and I fell in love. He took me for coffee that very weekend, and the rest is history," you recall with a lovesick smile plastered onto your face. Yuuji smiles sleepily, a sight that you mentally commit to memory. Â
"I'm happy you and Papa met," Yuuji whispers adorably, yawning again before his heavy eyes finally flutter shut, exhaustion taking over him. You smile again, leaning forward to place a gentle kiss against his forehead before you stand from his bed.Â
You turn your head, jumping at the sight of Nanami standing in the doorframe to Yuuji's bedroom, leaning against it with crossed arms and a gentle smile on his face. "How long were you there for?" Your voice is almost accusatory as you walk into your husband's arms, resting your own around his neck and tracing your fingernails along his nape. Â
"Long enough to hear you retell that story for â what â the eighty-fifth time?" Nanami perks an eyebrow at you, leaning down to slot his lips against yours. You hum against his mouth, tugging him a bit closer and biting playfully at his bottom lip. Â
He pulls away after a moment, the tip of his nose affectionately brushing against your own, his large hands squeezing playfully at your waist. Â
"And every time I tell it, you hang off of my every word, don't you?"Â Â
Nanami smiles, his lips ghosting over your own as he tugs you impossibly closer, your chest pressed flush against his own. Â
"That I do."Â
"Will you do just...one thing for me?" His voice is weak, broken. A stark contrast to the firm aura that he constantly radiated, it being one of his defining qualities. Â
But that persona had crumbled the moment that a single realization dawned on Nanami; the idea, or rather the fact, that he would never be able to see you again. Â
Just hours ago he would have been waiting for the day to end, counting down the hours, minutes, and then seconds until he was back where he had always loved to be; with you. Â
Now?Â
Gone was that hope, gone was the counting on his fingers until his work day was over, gone was the wondering what you would prepare for dinner tonight, gone was the longing to lay in bed and simply listen as you rambled about your day. It was all gone.Â
Nanami waits, his eyes not once leaving Yuuji's. The shock on the teenager's face is heartbreaking, his eyes wide and his eyebrows raised in disbelief at the current situation. He knows of the outcome, but he doesn't want to accept it, he can't accept it. Â
"Find (Y/N). I want you to tell her...what has transpired of today. I want you to remind her, that even if I'm not...there with her, that I love her."Â
Yuuji listens silently, already feeling the familiar sensation of tears building in the backs of his eyes. His vision blurs as they flood, clinging desperately to his bottom lashes and just barely threatening to fall down his cheeks. But he doesn't know if his tears are brought on by Nanami's words or by the extended period of time for which he had kept them open. Â
"Will you do that for me?" Nanami asks, trying his hardest and failing to hide the slight desperation in his voice. You needed to know, please. He waits, even though the skeletal hands of the Reapers slowly begin to extend for him, counting silently in their heads. Â
Yuuji swallows the growing lump in his throat, though it doesn't move. Instead, it only strengthens the tears in his eyes, and against his better judgement, a few of them fall. Â
He nods.Â
Nanami smiles, his head leaning back in acceptance. His eyes flutter shut, his mind painting just one final image of you. Everything down to the very lashes of your eyes is portrayed to perfection, granting him one final look at you.Â
"I'm sorry (Y/N)," Nanami whispers to nobody in particular, already feeling his body weaken. His head turns, gazing into eyes that stare back at him without an ounce of sympathy. Â
Yuuji stares in shock as the body of his mentor promptly implodes. Â
But he only has a single question.Â
Who is (Y/N)?Â
Just thinking about tracing Suguru's scar.
Word Count - 0.9k
A/N - I dedicate this piece to the Anon that flooded my inbox with 30+ messages telling me how it was canon that Gojo didn't have any scars.
Read the Gojo version here!
! PIECE BEGINS UNDERNEATH THE CUT !
GETO never let you see his scars after he received them â suddenly he was covering himself up with thick sweaters and baggy clothes. You noticed ⌠you always noticed. Â
But you said nothing, not wanting to draw unwanted attention to something that he was very clearly adamant on keeping hidden. Â
One night, however, your curiosity got the better of you. You didnât mean to pry as much as you did, but you desperately wanted Geto to know that you werenât going to suddenly start looking at him differently because of some raised skin â you wanted him to be comfortable around you.Â
You wanted things to be like they were before.Â
He was different. You could see it as clear as day. Â
His hugs didnât last as long as they once did, instead of bear hugs that he wouldnât pull away from unless you did first, you received a half-assed sideways squeeze. Â
It felt like he didnât want to be touching you in fear of contaminating you, like you would catch some otherworldly disease that didnât yet have a cure. It hurt you â it stung in a way that nothing else could compare to. Â
When you sat on the couch beside him, he would scoot a few inches away from you.Â
When you laid down to take a nap beside him, heâd offer you only his pinky and nothing else. Â
When you went to embrace him, his body would angle itself so that his shoulder rested against your chest. Â
âSuguru?â you whisper to him under the cloak that night provided, turning to face him properly. He mimics you, rolling onto his side and propping himself up with the use of his elbow, palm resting against the side of his face. Â
âHmm?â he hums in response, eyes studying your expression. His face pinches in slight concern at your narrowed eyes and furrowed brows â something was very clearly upsetting you. Â
âAre we okay?â Â
He pauses, staring quizzically at you as if you had somehow sprouted another head. His free hand extends, finger rubbing affectionately against your cheek. Â
âCourse we are. Why do you ask?â he murmurs, breath catching in his throat as you push yourself to sit up. Your legs cross, one ankle over the other while you maintain eye contact with Geto. Â
Your mind reminds you of what he had been doing; the behaviors that he had been displaying. What wasnât he telling you?Â
You swallow the growing lump in your throat, not wanting to accidentally make a big deal out of something that could otherwise be nothing.Â
âWhat are you hiding from me?â you whisper, already feeling tears build on your waterline at Getoâs shocked (and worried) expression. He looked so conflicted, so unsure that it made your heart crack. Â
And even though he wants to believe that he has no idea what youâre referencing ⌠he does. Â
He looks away from you, and even though itâs only for a moment, it only makes your heart sink deeper into your stomach. âItâsââÂ
âPlease donât sit there and tell me itâs nothing,â you practically beg, voice cracking. Geto lets out a small sigh through his nose, adjusting himself so that he sits in front of you. Â
â(Y/N)ââ he begins, but the way that you shake your head at him only makes him feel guilty, ââare you sure?âÂ
Your silence tells him everything that he needs to know. Â
Slowly, and albeit very hesitantly, Geto lifts his shirt, revealing an âXâ shaped scar on his chest. Your breath hitches at the sight of it, the sound making Geto flinch. Â
He tosses the shirt aside with a barely audible plop, not daring to make eye contact with you in fear of what expression you wore. So instead of glancing at you, Geto forces his eyes shut. Â
They shoot right back open at the feeling of your fingers lightly tracing his chest. Â
Shocked, his eyes flicker up to watch you. Your eyebrows are slightly pinched together, a worried indent to your forehead as your nails slowly move over the raised skin. Â
You donât say anything to him, not that you really need to. You knew that this â this gentle touch â was what Geto needed. He didnât need half-assed reassurances that carried no weight.Â
No, what he needed to know was that you were here, right with him, at his side â you werenât going anywhere. Â
Your finger reaches the end of where his scar slightly raises his skin. You shift forward, laying your palm against the center of the âXâ, feeling Getoâs heart thumping against your fingers. Â
He says nothing. You say nothing. Â
Your eyes flicker up to meet his own. He returns your softened glance. Â
âYouâre so handsome Sugu ⌠you know that, right?â you whisper tenderly, finally breaking the silence. The sigh he lets out in response is shaky, tear-filled. Â
Before Geto has the chance to shake his head, your lips are on his scar, the softness of you contrasting greatly with the roughness of his skin. Â
You glance back up at him, letting out a shocked squeak as he tugs you into his arms. Your head tucks into the crook of his neck, arms winding around his midsection. Â
His breath shudders as his nose tucks into your hair. âThank you.âÂ
You smile against him, turning your head and laying a chaste kiss against the skin of his throat. Your arms momentarily tighten around him, eyes closing in content.Â
âI love you.âÂ
âI love you too angel ⌠thank you.âÂ