More Tarot Cards!! These Are Super Fun To Do~

well hey, since hardly anyone's looking at this corner of the website anyway I might as well take the opportunity to vent (it's annoying to do it on twitter with the character cap)

Man, social media is hard.

I see so many people posting regular content consistently for years and years without even seemingly breaking a sweat, while it's always been so difficult for me... Calculating engagement, deciding the best times to post, or, hell, even just sharing what they think/feel/made/fucking ate that day just seems, like, so easy and second nature for pretty much everyone around me. It's genuinely incredible to me that somebody can share what they've learned about idk shitty impractical tanks made in WW1 on this website and make it such an interesting read that hundreds of people engage with it!

But I've tried keeping social media accounts for art and stuff so many times now, on here, on Instagram, on Artstation, on Xitter, and eventually it just- kinda- fades away, it just feels so exhausting to keep track of all the things necessary to Chase the Algorhythm™ if you wanna have any relevancy. Is it a charisma thing??? Where do I grind to get a stat boost on my Cha???

I'd love to say it doesn't matter to me, since I've been drawing shit for myself for years now, but unfortunately artists do need social media presence if they wanna get work. Not to mention, well, I wanna reach people with the stuff I do! I want people to react to what I made, to say what they liked about it, or how it made them feel, and then when I post something I worked on for hours only to get, like, almost zero visibility? idk, man, it just kinda hurts. It's probably selfish and immature for me to say it, I know that it takes time and effort to build an audience and all that, but damn I get happy when people show me that something I've made has affected them positively. I like the connection, I like the conversations, I like meeting people who enjoy the same nerdy trash that I do!

(I was very fortunate to have an art post of mine reach a lot of notes here years ago, which was amazing, but it's such a rare thing)

God, and, like, there's all these weird unspoken rules about interacting on social media too.

The other day a friend of mine came up to our friend group and was like "oh my god this girl liked my stories on instagram it means something does she like me" and I was SO confused and then they were like "well, when somebody not on your friends list likes your stories, it means they're interested in you"

Then some time later another friend was telling me that somebody stopped liking her posts and unfriended her and how that is a horrible offense and my fucking brain hurt, like- okay I get the unfriend part kinda but there could be a hundred reasons for it??? it's not like you have a deep personal connection to all 300 friends you have on your account???

Then I see so many people out there simply sharing something they think or did only to have some rando twist what they said and come at them like they're the shittiest person on the planet that deserves everything bad in life actually (except the ones that are willingly spouting/promoting hateful shit to begin with. Those can rot in hell and I shall not mourn their demise)

Like??? It might be the Power of Autism™ in me but it always feels like I'm one step away from either making a fool of myself or offending twenty different people or both. It's both the fear of having hundreds of thousands of eyes on me and the fear of having none at all. And that makes it really difficult to share anything on the internet for me. I already have to deal with my entire existence as a trans woman making some cunts around the world mad, it sucks that I have to risk it in places where I just wanna post dumb drawings and talk about dumb things that make me happy with others.

I dunno. Word vomit I guess. Social media is hard. Interacting with humans is hard. Sharing stuff is hard. I prefer Pokémon

I heard you like jirachi :)

Damn the movie did a ton to me. I dropped an entire album based off of and inspired by it and I have like 3 different ao3 fanfics where Max and Jirachi are able to get back together again

Seriously I was poisoned by distraught with that ending, if you’re interested in the fanfics I can give you the links, they’re really wholesome I promise

GIVE LINKS AND NO ONE GETS HURT 🔫

Seriously though, yeah that movie is super special! It's got such a nostalgic whimsical vibe to me that I just can't describe, watched it when I was a kid and then had the idea for my sequel fanfic on a rewatch a couple of months ago. The whole amusement park at night aesthetic is everything to me. Also that ending song 😭😭😭😭😭

I'd love to see what you worked on!! I need more wholesome Jirachi content in my lifeeee

Here another doodle I made bc Star Child is my comfort mythical (I need to make a comp of all the Jirachi doodles I made, there's a ton lol)

Day 24 - "Blind". Best arc of the Daremonkey comics right here. Seriously though, episode 18 was one of my favorite episodes. Man I miss Kill la Kill ;-; Based on the cover of Daredevil #232.  

Oh boy, here we go with the traditional stuff. Ya see, the cool thing about scanners is that they allow you to digitalize your drawings with more detail and a higher resolution than what you'd get by using a camera. The not cool thing about scanners is that now you can see every little imperfection in the drawing in a much clearer way. ;-; I wonder how fast Reigen would've solved all the problems in Stranger Things if he was a cop there. Reference because Mob Psycho's opening is amazing

Oh look! Theme for day 19 is “cloud”! That’s a good excuse to draw Hilda again! :D

Tried to come up with transformations for three more signs. Now I’m not saying that these should’ve been the ones represented in the game, but c’mon, Libra or Scorpio would’ve been pretty awesome.

Pennyraka the Floating Clown. Day 5 of Inktober: the best girls keep being spooky.

So, like, I didn’t plan for these to be this detailed, I just get too excited in the process. I’m not sure this is healthy behavior. =P

Anyway have these bonus chibis too.

Alternate color palettes for Midoriya because why not. 

Would you buy this DLC pack, yes or yes?

Re. Your comic question: I presume they mean Sanders Sides! From a quick Google it's a comedy TV series by Thomas Sanders. There's a bunch of different Sanders that all represent like, different parts of him.

MOTHERFUCKER STOLE MY IDEA WTF

(jk, thank you for the answer hehe ♡)

Fooling around with SAI, testing new coloring/shading styles. Them luminosity layers tho.

happy trans day of visibility yall!!

since it's a day to celebrate our resurrection after breaking away from the shackles of our birth-assigned gender, imma tell yall a funny story

Back when I was still a little 20 year old egg, I was starting to figure myself out. I had a lot of lgbtq+ friends, including one trans friend, so I was coming in contact with all those cool new identities. And I loved learning about their flags! I would often take a look at them and think about their meaning, how they made me feel, and how they related to the identity they represented.

It would go something like this:

this would go on for another three years. hindsight is a pretty funny thing isn't it lmao

anyway, happy trans day of visibility!!! we're all here for each other, forever and always, no matter how much shit the world throws at us <3