Smoke

Deceitful Arrows

People say love would either save or destroy

I thought I have a choice, to hurt or to enjoy

But I met you and I experienced both

You opened my eyes, yet you never kept your oath

You saved me from drowning in the endless sea

But when I fell, you weren't there to catch me

So now, I'm lying with my broken pieces in the ground

Wishing you've let me stay lost, never to be found

People also say that when love is true

It will give you hope for something new

Yet my heart breaks every time it beats for you

Tell me, have you lied to me too?

Suddenly, I've realized that I'm plainly stupid

To let myself be stricken by mythical cupid

Now, my heart will always have a void, a remembrance from you

I have only loved once and you never even knew.

- D.G. Gir// 03/26/2018

Not Your Puppet

maybe i can climb these walls

show them that i can also be tall

maybe i can open their eyes

that i'm more than the stupid white lies

they look at me like i could never know better

like a mirror they can easily shatter

they talk like i couldn't even hear

they caught me in their headlights like a small, scared deer

maybe there's still time to escape

that i could still create the world that i crave

i have never belonged in this prison

i'd rather die on my own than with their poison.

-D.G. Gir// 04/07/2018

Free me

they have broken the person that i am

no matter what i do, i'll never be the same

i have only wanted happiness, something that'll last

something that'll prove i'm more than my past

i know that my soul have flown today

and i'm more alone that i'll admit to say

i even have lost that little smile within me

i'm nothing but a worthless broken machinery

i hope someday they would see

the creature we turned me to be

but i know that it's too late now

for the human inside me have taken its last bow.

-D.G. Gir// 04/06/2018

Innocence Lost

My heart clenches as if it can still feel

Can still discern what's right, what's real

But I know better, it was torn

The day it fell for you, I was reborn

I can still feel the phantom beating

I can still hear the echoes of footsteps receding

The day it fell for you, I was reborn

That was the last day in my sleeve, it was worn.

I know that I'm healing when I realized that I don't want to die anymore. I realized that there are still things I wanna do, feelings I want to experience, adventures I want to go to, though I still have no motivation for it. But I'll get there. I believe it.

Farewell

The moon-

That was the last thing I remember

We were staring at it

Like it was the most beautiful thing ever

Then a hug

For that was the last time we'll see each other

I wish I have stayed

On that warm night of November.

Him

The way he talks,

The way he laughs

Is like music to my ears

The way he says my name,

The way he smiles

Take away all my fears

But as I think,

And fall asleep

While wiping away my tears

I know that I’ve fallen

For a man

Who won’t ever hold me near.

-jileeza

Hey, your poems are amazing and relatable

Thank you. This inspires me to keep writing. This means so much to me. Thank you. ☺️