“booktok Girlies” Are So Funny To Me.

Really can't get over the CAN WE TALK? stickynotes. And I mean I think part of it really kinda clicked when I've seen some fanart about it. We really see in TBOB that Ford after beginning to hear voices slipping through the cracks and questions Bill, to learn what Bill really intended, ENTIRELY shuts down his communication with Bill. And you see Bill when he gets questioned in that moment responds with a heavily implied dialogue along the lines of "haha, yeah I tricked you, I'm here to overtake your dimension". But Bill still expects Ford to respond to him in some way, and it's very clear that Bill is shocked when Ford REFUSES to talk to him. And what's interesting is Bill doesn't just IMMEDIATELY begin with threats; he actually leaves stickynotes first, before Bill realizes he's FUCKED UP big time and gets really nasty. There's something pleading with the CAN WE TALK? sticky note. There's a point where Bill does realize he's not getting what he expected, that he's missing Ford, and that he's willing to possibly even smooth some things over, explain things better (maybe even the part that the nightmare dimension is unraveling perhaps) or persuade Ford into Bill's plans. But Ford refuses, and it's already too late for Bill because just like with Stan, Ford feels betrayed and when Ford feels betrayed he'll mercilessly cut the person out of his life. Ford deeply, deeply holds hurt and betrayal and as a result he has zero desire to speak with Bill again (and also uhhh big red flag to take over the world, so also. Yeah).

And it's interesting because it's a slower ramp up until Bill is desperate and threatens, uses violence, because that's what he's always used when it comes down to it, and an ultimatum is given. It wasn't just threats out of the gate; Bill DID try to speak to Ford (btw this is not me being like Ford should have spoken to Bill and it would be magically healthy, cause no matter how you slice it it's just a toxic mess tbh). Threats out of the gate would have been faster; there's over three weeks in the timeline, before Ford goes through the portal (althought we don't get too much context around exactly when everything occurs). That's a lot of time! But Bill didn't threaten Ford immediately. And I think part of that reason is because Bill expected Ford to speak to him, expected their relationship or at least their project to mean enough to Ford that Ford would speak to him and then continue their work, once his anger cooled off. And I think also part of it is because Bill cared about Ford, not that he'd admit it in the moment; but he'd rather Ford willingly be alongside him, then have to force him through threats to do the work on the portal. You see that, even after Ford spends 30 years trying to kill him and nearly even does, when he offers him during wierdmageddon to be a henchmaniac. Bill cares about Ford, wants Ford beside him. But then Ford continues to refuse to engage with him at all, and Bill realizes he's lost Ford, and progressively gets more desperate and angrier as he's still refused, and falls into the violence he usually uses, to get Ford to cooperate.

Anyhow it's one of those things that you wonder what would've happened if they DID speak, but that would ultimately be defying a big part of who Ford is... So in a way it's a juicy juicy tidbit to chew on, the implications beyond the writing on the sticky note.

…and again…

yall want me to drop a bunch of storyboards (i use that term VERY LOOSELY) that i made about the goobers?

hhihi

lmao just realising that this whole blog is dedicated to my gf au and yet i haven’t posted a single thing about the main guy it’s about 😭

so idk if yiu guys have read “the therapist” bill x reader fanfic on a03, BUT i just finished the first page (chapter? idk how a03 works lmao) i have some comments.

oh yeah almost didn’t spoiler this lmao

Spoiler for “the therapist”!!!!

ok so after bill started getting moody, the therapist was like “oh dw dude ill change into smth more familiar for you” and then i saw a future line out of the corner of my eye of bill having a panic attack, and istg. not fucking joking right now. i had ti take a whole moment away from my screen like “please dont fucking turn into a euclidian— please dont turn into a fucking euclidian…”

THEY FUCKING TURNED INTO A EUCLIDIAN. AND IF THAT WASNT BAD ENOUGH IT WAS HIS FUCKING MOM?????

LIKE WHAT???😭😭

NO YOU CANT— WTF?? WHAT??? IM ACTUALLY GOING FERAL WHY TF WOULD THEY DO THAT???😭😭

im going clynicly insane.

HAPPY (super fucking late) VALENTINES DAY!!!!

(art + bonus under cut)

sorry for getting this in so late lol. i had wanted to do this all week (the first image), but never started because “i always have tomorrow!” and adhd… very much also adhd.

and it was supposed to be a lot better than some crappy meme format looking shit, but whatever. im actually pretty happy with how bill came out, though i wish i could’ve made it look like he was actually stretching and pulling at the shirt, instead of… whatever he’s doing in the picture.

and mike was supposed to be fully drawn out, not just the “:D” but i wanted to draw him in a more realistic style ive been trying lately, (but obv that didn’t work), and i wanted him to be like clenching his fist at his sides, smiling and giggling like a dork, all while trying not to bounce up and down with autistic joy. because he likes the shirt.

but i physically cannot draw mouths for the life of me.

anyways, the 2nd picture might look really good, but i just traced over a stock photo i thought was cute, coloured it in, and used my trusty dusty 2018 gacha life shading skills. (the only part that looks good is bills vest lol) and the more i look at it the more i eugh…. yk? artist shit man, istg.

but yeah, i don’t have a human bill design yet, because i cant for the life of me draw out what i think bill looks like as a human, because 1, idk, and two, it depends on the micheal (ik, im making this a lot harder for myself)

so this one was based off of @wackpedion‘s human bill design! (who is soooo fucking cute and adorable btw, checking out their art is a must)

and heres a lil treat for you guys; an unfinished relationship/ship chart from a long time ago!!! i thought some parts of it were funny, so i thought i’d share :’)

(i reviewed/revised it a lil bit, but im pretty sure most of that stuff isn’t really canon anymore)

but yeah, happy valenpines day <3

I'm reading journal 3 and I'll probably reread the end of book of bill, because im trying to get a better vibe of the events that transpire and get inspo. Im writing a billford thing and i want to make sure it aligns with canon, ESPECIALLY timeline wise. I was trying to figure this out on my own, but I shouldnt torture myself over this. So I'm just gonna ask people a question that's burning my mind:

Exactly how much time transpired between Ford meeting bill and the betrayal? How much time did they spend as friends? In my head I thought they were living their gayass partnership/romance for like 3 years, but according to the book, I feel like it's implying there was only one year from when they met, to when he was betrayed. Which is NOT a lot of time, and I'm kind of disappointed. Can anyone shine some light on this for me?? I want to make sure the thing im writing is in tandem with canon.

Paul Williams in Phantom of the Paradise is so human Bill Cipher

ford gets worms after winning a bet & bill has to take some drastic measures