Soooo.

The Laurens Interlude

Eliza: Alexander, there's a letter for you from South Carolina.

Alexander: It's from John Laurens, I'll read it later.

Me:

Eliza:

Me: *ugly sobbing* NO IT'S NOT!!!

Eliza: *in song* *slightly calmer* No, it's not.

Eliza: Do you know what Angelica said when she read what you’d done?

Angelica: This probably wouldn’t have happened if he was with me.

Alexander Hamilton: *destroys literally the entire U.S. government*

Washington: Hey little homie don't get so upset

IT JUST DOESN’T GET ANY BETTER

THAT’S THE WORST THING

IT JUST KEEPS GETTING WORSE AND WORSE

AND JUST WHEN YOU THINK IT’S GOTTEN THE WORST

NOPE

Hercules Mulligan as a dad

Mulligan: do we need to go BRRRRAH BRRRRAH shopping

Child:

Child: okay first off

Actually true

Which Lin-Manuel Miranda musical to listen to based on how you want to feel

Happy and warm: In the Heights

Excited and pumped: Hamilton, Act 1

Sad and inspired: Hamilton, Act 2

Angry and dissatisfied: 21 Chump Street

phillip hamilton things, for people who haven't or can't see the show.

-during his rap in take a break, he starts out nervous and then kid gets WAY IN TO IT, bending his knees and flexing his arms and yelling. alex hugs him and looks so proud and phillip is so pleased with himself. it’s precious.

-during reynolds pamphlet, jefferson, madison, and burr take him up front, surround him, and show him the paper. they point and say “at his own house? at his own house? damn.” out loud to him and oh my god his face, he’s shattered. you can physically see his father get taken down a peg in his eyes. I can’t even describe it. it was heartbreaking.

- I always pictured his argument with george eaker happening up close, like he pushed past a bunch of people and was up his face. but no, eaker is up on the balcony and in true hamilton fashion, phillip is making a scene and shouting at him from below. the actors in the “play” even stop to watch, and you’re like damn this really is alex’s son.

-when he’s telling his dad about the duel, alex is standing with his arms folded (and using his “dad” voice) and phillip looks so sheepish but also defiant and it reminds me so much of “meet me inside.”

-“stay alive reprise.” tore. my. heart. out. which I knew it would but jesus. no mercy. I was full on sobbing. (eliza screams at the end of it and I can’t even describe that. it’s so horrible and your breath catches in your throat and she sounds so worn down and destroyed. she’s held it together throughout all the shit alex put her through but in that moment it all comes crashing down and you can hear so much pain. It’s heartbreaking and beautiful. the acting is amazing.)

Just. Beautiful...

“Intelligent eyes in a hunger pang frame”

“But when I fantasize at night it’s Alexander’s eyes” 

“At least I keep his eyes in my life”