44avenue-de-paris

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I had so much to say to you, but in the end, I just said goodbye.

It wasn’t good, but I meant every word

You can’t love me if you don’t love yourself,

you’re gone now but I’ll never forget,

you are and always will be my biggest regret

Why do I find softness in your thorns, beauty in your flaws ? Why am I so empty after you're gone ?

I want to cry but what’s the point ? The tears only hurt and disappoint

I think I'm over you today,

but I know I'll miss you again tomorrow

You painted my world in black and blue,

Bruised by the words from loving you,

My heart ached for lighter hues,

But your colors were all I knew…

I'm not ready to forget-

not yet,

So please just stay inside my mind,

Until I'm strong enough to say goodbye

You tore every good thing apart,

until only you were left inside my empty heart

It feels like you’re stuck inside my chest and you’re breaking me with every breath I take

We couldn’t heal together so we must suffer apart

Time can’t heal me from you, everyday I replay a memory or two,

it may never come true but all I wish for is you

I loved the Colors in your eyes, the softness of your mouth, the beauty within your mind and the evil you tried to hide

Unlimited feelings, I’m a fool for how much I’ve given

I’d come back a thousand times if only you loved me once

You lied but that’s not why I left,

It’s when I realised you never believed the love I felt

I know that my heart can’t forget you but why are you still inside my head ?

You said I was too sensitive and you were right but I’d rather be a slave to my feelings than a slave to my pride

Some days I miss you so much more that I wonder if it’s because those are the days you are missing me as well

You may as well have been imaginary after all the things you’ve made up

Is there a universe where we don’t suffer ? Because I wanna take you there and stay forever

Pain is familiar, it’s happiness that I still wonder about

I used to say I could fix anything before you broke everything

You took it out on me because you knew I would take it,

I thought you loved too hard to contain it, I’m scared how much you took unrestricted,

And all you gave is pain for my patience

I cried so much in this life that maybe I’ll laugh everyday in the next one

You’re haunting me, not in the dark or late at night but in the morning or when I laugh,

It’s your name that I need to exorcise

I don’t care about the pain anymore, I’m scared of how much I’ll let you hurt me just for a chance to be yours

I’m scared of the silence,

I’m scared of the noise,

Either way I’m thinking of you and missing your voice

Do you believe in reincarnation ? Because I loved you before I even knew who you were,

It’s like I found you again and you felt like home from the start,

Now I’m only waiting for you to remember us

Sometimes you were vulnerable and I fell in love with that but more often you were destructive and I hate that I loved you like that

I don’t want to be afraid but I am,

I don’t want to be alone but I am,

I don’t want to be the way that I am